tantric space

A few more pieces fallen into my hands concerning tantra, enough to provide a new and developing paradigm of sexual energy, although the resolution is still rather vague at this point.

At witchcamp I posted a desire to have a tantric breath orgasm with a female companion, and I was shocked at how easily it came to pass. I had four experiences in total, most of which were restrained in some way - an obvious demonstration of how boundaries and trust function on an energetic level. The first was by far the most intense, but the rest allowed me to explore the gateway into that space cautiously and without expectation.

I began to recognize a peculiar quality to the energy as I connected with another person, which for lack of any better understanding felt like sharing or entering each other's mindspace. I have a suspicion that this connection depends on both partners having a familiarity with their own energy, which was confirmed back at home when I reached out for someone and felt no "push" in return. There must be some kind of energy feedback monitor, each partner opening and moving until the confluence has been finely tuned and we rest "on the same wavelength" so to speak. What that is exactly still remains vague, but all four of these experiences were noticeably similar to my previous random and strange tantric encounters.

It was also clear that there is a delicate foundation of emotional, physical, and spiritual context that must align for a person to feel safe, empowered, and attracted enough to open that energy. Again this was all very similar to the boundaries, fears, and desires work which underlies quote unquote normal sexual encounters. It leads me to think that physical sexual acts work like symbols to unlock and access underlying currents of energy, the same way that movement, gestures, costuming, and speech all help the subconscious mind to access energies for spellwork.

There are still a number of things I don't understand about tantra, but someday soon I will return there for more exploration. One crucial question remains - what exactly can this be used for? Blissful, mind blowing sex still seems rather enticing, but I think there is even more potential than that.